Nicole Kidman may be happily married to American Idol judge Keith Urban, but once upon a time, she was part of a very different kind of Hollywood power couple, before it all fell apart.
In the December issue of Vanity Fair, Nicole opens up about how dramatically different her life was when she was still married to Tom Cruise, a relationship she has rarely spoken about since the couple’s 2001 split.
“I was so young,” she says of her marriage to the movie star, who she wed when she was 23. “And you know, with no disrespect to what I had with Tom, I’ve met my great love now. And I really did not know if that was going to happen. I wanted it, but I didn’t want it for a while, because I didn’t want to jump from one relationship to another. I had a lot of time alone, which was really, really good, because I was a child, really, when I got married. And I needed to grow up.”
She says that part of what bonded her to her then-husband was the immense pressure that their fame, both as individuals and as a couple, put on them — something she compares to the current situation of celebrities like Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie.
“There is something about that sort of existence that, if you really focus on each other and you’re in that bubble, it’s very intoxicating, because it’s just the two of you. And there is only one other person that’s going through it. So it brings you very close, and it’s deeply romantic. I’m sure Brad and Angelina have that—because there’s nobody else that understands it except that person who’s sleeping right next to you.”
Despite the “intoxicating” nature of that sort of relationship, Nicole says her current life, with Keith and their two daughters in Nashville, suits her much better.
“I didn’t find what I was looking for in fame. So I went, O.K., this is not for me. And it was such a blessing that I found somebody who said, ‘Well, are you willing to move to Tennessee?’ And I was, ‘Oh, am I willing to move!’”