Gisele Bundchen has opened up about why she broke up with former boyfriend, Leonardo DiCaprio.
The model, 38, who dated the 44-year-old Oscar-winning actor for five years, said she experienced a dark period in her early twenties, even though her career was on fire. She told Porter magazine that she started to have panic attacks and became depressed.
“When I was going through my panic attacks, I didn’t even feel like I could share [them] with anyone,” Bundchen said.
“I thought maybe I don’t have the right, everybody is going through so many difficult things in the world, and I don’t have the right to feel this way. So I’d suppress it, and the more I suppressed it, the bigger it became.”
Bundchen said a doctor prescribed Xanax but she didn’t want to take it, instead choosing to change her lifestyle. Rather than living out of a suitcase, and existing on mocha frappuccinos, cigarettes and wine, Bundchen cut back on her work, along with sugar, caffeine and alcohol. She dove into yoga and meditation and spent more time with her family.
She also realised that DiCaprio was not right for her.
“No longer numbing myself with smoking, drinking and too much work, I was becoming more and more aware of things that I’d chosen not to look at,” she wrote. “Was I alone in wanting to do some serious soul-searching while he stayed the same? In the end, unfortunately, the answer was yes.”
Bundchen broke up with DiCaprio in 2005, and in 2006 she began dating Tom Brady, American football quarterback for the New England Patriots (who plays in his ninth Super Bowl on Sunday).
The two married in 2009 and have since welcomed two children.
In her new book, Lessons: My Path to a Meaningful Life, Bundchen writes that Brady, whom she met on a blind date, “is someone you can count on. It’s a quality I hadn’t experienced in any of my other romantic relationships. I love my husband – and most of all, I trust him. With Tom, who provides our family with a stable foundation, I’m able to create a home.”
USA Today, with staff writers